I want to be seen, back to front, top to bottom, inside and out;
I want to be seen, I long to be noticed, at least some how acknowledged, whether it's by a slight tilt of the head or the cut of the eye, the lift of one eyebrow or fluttering eyelashes. 
I am acknowledged either way, and my heart & mind will sit contently, happily waiting til it happen again. I want to be noticed again. It soon becomes the drug I crave. Squints from a distance, & the heat of your stare, I pray for it to one day scold my shoulders and eventually burn through my heart unlocking the secret I have been yearning to release.

I suppose I haven't really been working on it so this should still count as a before picture. Definitely aiming to tone up by my birthday in March

One of the most amazing days of my life ♥ 

Gracias Adios

What of all this hope and faith I wish for people? What happens when it's all gone, gone before I could steal some of it.
Left giving empty statements, with little meaning. How can I possibly bestow happiness when I am far from happy myself?
While everyone moves on, progressing and travelling past, getting better, becoming brilliant. Appearing to succeed where I had failed. I am left behind, still searching for what seems to be the future, what seemed to be happiness, acceptance. And so I remain, this naked child, shivering on the cold concrete floor, surrounded by night, hot tears streaming down my cheeks, and bruises spread across my body. I am still vulnerable, still weak, still... useless...
... Still... searching...

Did you ever feel as if you weren't good enough?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IyoCqWlNWqI&feature=youtube_gdata_player

And it's happiness we yearn

It's freedom we seek

I am the product of unproductivity

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8inJtTG_DuU&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Vous n'avez pas besoin d'être sophistiquée et riche d'acquérir le respect, la beauté et le bonheur.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfKBkQ4ID04&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Nos sunt infinitae.