Shit day, shit life, shit being.

I'm fed up already, let me be someone else, let me be someone that isn't emotionally jarred by the slightest thing. Let me be different, give me some damn peace. Please. It hurts so much, I hate the way  I think, I hate being me, I hate Nicole.

Why do I hold onto feelings after the whole situation has finished? Does that even make sense? Am I really a dickhead. In what world is this aiding me in any way?
Just give my body and mind away to someone else, let them take it, because I don't want it anymore.